Lazy Days

Enya
"Lazy Days"

Lazy old day
Rolling away
Dreaming the day away
Don't want to go
Now that I'm in the flow
Crazy amazing day

One red balloon
Floats to the moon
Just let it fly away
I only know
That I'm longing to go
Back to my lazy day

And how it sings and how it sighs
And how it never stays
And how it rings and how it cries
And how it sails away... away... away....


Woot woot! Today after my parents left to do a church thing and I was home alone (my bro at work and planning on spending the night at a friend's), I had the most perfect lazy day I have had in awhile. I sat around listening to my mix of Enya favorites CD, reading and eating snack foods with the lights on medium, the Christmas tree bright, and the sky outside dark as ever. Oh, it was so wonderful. I love the days when I don't have to think about people around me, or homework, or friends... just me, doing what I want to do, when I want to do it, and with who I want to do it, which is always just me. I thrive on my own, because I've always had to, and no matter how many friends I get or how 'popular' I become, I hope I treasure being alone at least half the time, like I do now.

One thing that doesn't fit with the song is the "how it never stays... and how it sails away" part. I don't like it when it stops. It's bliss, and no one ever likes not being happy, right? I felt like sobbing when my parents started talking to me about all kinds of things, because the lazy day was truly gone at that moment.

I like being alone, but only when I am truly alone. I hate being alone when surrounded by people. That's what it's like when my parents are home, especially when my brother is gone, and how it is at school, especially at lunch on every day but Thursday when my two best friends (the only ones who will come talk to me of their own accord) have the other lunch.

But, going back to things that are good, for Merlin's sake, today really was awesome. I love lazy days.

Lazy old day
Rolling away
Dreaming the day away
Don't want to go
Now that I'm in the flow
Crazy amazing day...

The Middle

Jimmy Eat World
"The Middle"

Hey
Don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out
Or looked down on
Just try your best
Try everything you can
And don't you worry what they tell themselves
When you're away

[Chorus:]
It just takes some time
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride
Everything, everything will be just fine
Everything, everything will be all right, all right

Hey
You know they're all the same
You know you're doing better on your own
So don't buy in
Live right now
Yeah, just be yourself
It doesn't matter if it's good enough
For someone else

[Chrous x2]

Hey
Don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out
Or looked down on
Just do your best
Do everything you can
Don't you worry what their bitter hearts
Are going to say

[Chrous x1]

It just takes some time
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride
Everything, everything will be just fine
Everything, everything will be all right


I am finding way too many good songs lately... anyways, I love this song. My bro was playing it and he sent it to me when I asked. This is one of those awesome songs that I have always loved, but forgot to downoad between when I got my computer three or so years ago and now. I've been listening to it on repeat with my headphones, wishing I could blast it and sing along, but my parents are here along with company. Majorly sucks.

Do you know how much that song works for me? The brilliant thing is, it works for half the girls in the US, tons more in the western world, and for who knows how many everywhere else. This post goes out to all those girls who are in the middle right now or who have ever been in the middle, because I know what you're feeling, or what you have felt, in my own way. It sucks, doesn't it? But, we have living proof in women everywhere who have gotten through nearly the same thing to show us that we will get through it. Men everywhere too, thought it's a much different middle than the one a female will encounter. XD But seriously, this song rocks. It is so... cool.

Bottoms up, ladies -- to the eventual end of the middle!