Melancholy
Mar. 11th, 2004 06:56 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
vollmusAdjective. Causing or tending to cause sadness or depression of mind or spirit.
The end of school today was the opposite of the rise of my spirit yesterday during yoga. I should have been feeling wonderful, excited that school was out for a long weekend, but I was feeling dismal, depressed, pensive.
In French today, my last class, we had to move seats again.. but this time, we weren't allowed to sit next to the same people. I was so sad.. Lawrence and I sat together a couple chairs down from where we sat before, but Axel and Travis sat all the way across the room. If that wasn't bad enough, Beth and Kenna came over to sit next to us, and so did Martin (for today.. his best friend in the class, Devin, was absent), and they had this really long and boring (to me) conversation about "the club," for the entire period. Apparently, Beth and one of our friends, Megan, created "the club" in eighth grade for girls who had never been kissed and never had a boyfriend, but now they are both disqualified, so Kenna is the acting president. Their entire conversation was about how far they had gone, how many others they knew of that had gone that far, etc. Because they were almost always talking, Lawrence wasn't paying attention to the speaking activity we were doing, so we barely got it finished, and he kept snapping at me.
I missed Axel and Travis so much today. We always had these random conversations that would switch to other topics many times throughout the period. And Axel knew so much about me it was scary sometimes. XD ;.; Travis never let me down, always reminded me of things that I forgot, was so funny. Neither of them thought they knew a lot about French when they were both so smart, I couldn't believe that they thought that.
I'm talking about them like they're dead. But honestly, I don't see them if it's not in French, because we are all in different grades.
I just hope we can sit together again before the year ends, and that we are all in the same French class next year. I feel like I've lost part of my soul..
The end of school today was the opposite of the rise of my spirit yesterday during yoga. I should have been feeling wonderful, excited that school was out for a long weekend, but I was feeling dismal, depressed, pensive.
In French today, my last class, we had to move seats again.. but this time, we weren't allowed to sit next to the same people. I was so sad.. Lawrence and I sat together a couple chairs down from where we sat before, but Axel and Travis sat all the way across the room. If that wasn't bad enough, Beth and Kenna came over to sit next to us, and so did Martin (for today.. his best friend in the class, Devin, was absent), and they had this really long and boring (to me) conversation about "the club," for the entire period. Apparently, Beth and one of our friends, Megan, created "the club" in eighth grade for girls who had never been kissed and never had a boyfriend, but now they are both disqualified, so Kenna is the acting president. Their entire conversation was about how far they had gone, how many others they knew of that had gone that far, etc. Because they were almost always talking, Lawrence wasn't paying attention to the speaking activity we were doing, so we barely got it finished, and he kept snapping at me.
I missed Axel and Travis so much today. We always had these random conversations that would switch to other topics many times throughout the period. And Axel knew so much about me it was scary sometimes. XD ;.; Travis never let me down, always reminded me of things that I forgot, was so funny. Neither of them thought they knew a lot about French when they were both so smart, I couldn't believe that they thought that.
I'm talking about them like they're dead. But honestly, I don't see them if it's not in French, because we are all in different grades.
I just hope we can sit together again before the year ends, and that we are all in the same French class next year. I feel like I've lost part of my soul..
