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Oct. 21st, 2004 01:50 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
vollmusI know that sound.
The sound of my impending doom. The sound of complete and utter destruction. The sound of darkness. The sound of--
I need to get back to work.
Why do I torture myself like this? What am I expecting it to do for me? Is my future really going to be affected because I did all this crap? Will it really be all that much better?
Because if not, I want out. I'm already sick of this. I hate this. Why do I do this to myself?
Because I promised.
Why do I make promises? I should know by now that they are generally hard to keep.
Idiot.
The sound of my impending doom. The sound of complete and utter destruction. The sound of darkness. The sound of--
I need to get back to work.
Why do I torture myself like this? What am I expecting it to do for me? Is my future really going to be affected because I did all this crap? Will it really be all that much better?
Because if not, I want out. I'm already sick of this. I hate this. Why do I do this to myself?
Because I promised.
Why do I make promises? I should know by now that they are generally hard to keep.
Idiot.
