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Sep. 19th, 2004 03:25 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
vollmusSo yesterday mom told dad and I that Brother B has cancer. After he found out about this, he called one of his friends who was a nurse and told her that his leg was really hurting. She thinks it's blood clots. She thinks he's going to die.
I don't actually know Bro. or Sis. B very well, but I do know their sons Reed (18) and Doug (16), and both are awesome people, especially Reed. Bro. B is a high councilman, and Reed has one of the strongest testimonies I've ever known and is one of the best people I ever will know.
How can something like this happen to people who are so good? How could people with such faith in God be put through such a terrible test? Mom told me that cancer can get to anyone; it doesn't distinguish. Well, the Lord distinguishes. Why didn't he stop this? The Bs are strong enough in their faith that they don't need this trial to help them. If Bro. B dies, I don't know that I'll ever be able to believe again, even though I know the Bs will forgive the Lord completely and just anticipate His coming even more than before so they will see their father again. All of my prayers will be focussed on him. Who cares about me when something like this is happening to people infinitely better than I? I certainly don't. The Lord has better things to do each night than help me to sleep well; he needs to start curing Bro. B and comforting his family.
If he dies, I don't know how I'll ever be able to truly come back to the church. This is all astonishingly close to me. It is very important that the Bs stay perfect and faithful--I've relied on it. Reed and Doug have always been and always will be nearly perfect people, again, Reed especially. Nothing should ever change something like that--I can't forgive anyone who does. Never. If Reed loses an ounce of faith over this and somehow I realize it, I'm gone. If someone like Reed can lose faith.... He truly is a man like unto Moroni. It's amazing, and everything I've ever wished I could be, but could never achieve.
I don't know that I've said it before in here, but I firmly believe that if any church is true it is the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. I am not a good member because I have had trouble believing that anyone exists up there in the past two years or so, but if anyone really is up there, Christianity is the way to go, and a Mormon is what to be. There are no books so true as the Book of Mormon and the Bible, so far as it is translated correctly. Even while I am unsure of the existence of God and Jesus Christ I am firm in my belief of this.
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By the way, am I the only one who hadn't realized that that Tower of Babel was a seriously bad, Satan-induced thing? I can't believe I missed it; with all these years of reading the good books, it was right in front of me.
I don't actually know Bro. or Sis. B very well, but I do know their sons Reed (18) and Doug (16), and both are awesome people, especially Reed. Bro. B is a high councilman, and Reed has one of the strongest testimonies I've ever known and is one of the best people I ever will know.
How can something like this happen to people who are so good? How could people with such faith in God be put through such a terrible test? Mom told me that cancer can get to anyone; it doesn't distinguish. Well, the Lord distinguishes. Why didn't he stop this? The Bs are strong enough in their faith that they don't need this trial to help them. If Bro. B dies, I don't know that I'll ever be able to believe again, even though I know the Bs will forgive the Lord completely and just anticipate His coming even more than before so they will see their father again. All of my prayers will be focussed on him. Who cares about me when something like this is happening to people infinitely better than I? I certainly don't. The Lord has better things to do each night than help me to sleep well; he needs to start curing Bro. B and comforting his family.
If he dies, I don't know how I'll ever be able to truly come back to the church. This is all astonishingly close to me. It is very important that the Bs stay perfect and faithful--I've relied on it. Reed and Doug have always been and always will be nearly perfect people, again, Reed especially. Nothing should ever change something like that--I can't forgive anyone who does. Never. If Reed loses an ounce of faith over this and somehow I realize it, I'm gone. If someone like Reed can lose faith.... He truly is a man like unto Moroni. It's amazing, and everything I've ever wished I could be, but could never achieve.
I don't know that I've said it before in here, but I firmly believe that if any church is true it is the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. I am not a good member because I have had trouble believing that anyone exists up there in the past two years or so, but if anyone really is up there, Christianity is the way to go, and a Mormon is what to be. There are no books so true as the Book of Mormon and the Bible, so far as it is translated correctly. Even while I am unsure of the existence of God and Jesus Christ I am firm in my belief of this.
< / preaching >
By the way, am I the only one who hadn't realized that that Tower of Babel was a seriously bad, Satan-induced thing? I can't believe I missed it; with all these years of reading the good books, it was right in front of me.
