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vollmusI am feeling a pleasant mix of fatigue and accomplishment right now. In the back of my mind, however, is extreme aggravation.
Writing papers isn't very difficult for me. I don't have a problem with sitting down in front of a computer in the lab and working all through the night and right past dawn, for hours and hours if that's what it takes to get it done. Once I've started, I have a burst of energy that takes me through what would otherwise be the worst stage of the paper-writing process. The idea that I have to finish by nine keeps me working hard, and the prospect of more sleep if I finish earlier keeps me working fast. It's the perfect system! Except for one thing: starting.
The hardest thing for me to do is start a project. What I never quite realized about myself before was that I'm not a procrastinator solely because of laziness, but also because of my fear of starting. I want to delay the agony of doing the project for as long as possible. I just know it's going to be horrific. Now, that's funny, considering I've enjoyed writing every single paper I've written this year so far.
If I could just get it into my thick head that paper-writing is actually fun once I've finally sat down to do it, my life would be much easier.
Writing papers isn't very difficult for me. I don't have a problem with sitting down in front of a computer in the lab and working all through the night and right past dawn, for hours and hours if that's what it takes to get it done. Once I've started, I have a burst of energy that takes me through what would otherwise be the worst stage of the paper-writing process. The idea that I have to finish by nine keeps me working hard, and the prospect of more sleep if I finish earlier keeps me working fast. It's the perfect system! Except for one thing: starting.
The hardest thing for me to do is start a project. What I never quite realized about myself before was that I'm not a procrastinator solely because of laziness, but also because of my fear of starting. I want to delay the agony of doing the project for as long as possible. I just know it's going to be horrific. Now, that's funny, considering I've enjoyed writing every single paper I've written this year so far.
If I could just get it into my thick head that paper-writing is actually fun once I've finally sat down to do it, my life would be much easier.
