Bleu, Blanc, et Rouge

12 day Acis tour of France: $2500
Lunches Acis doesn't pay for: $250
Souvenirs: $500
Asking your teacher if you can enter the tour group two months after the first deadline: Priceless.
Some things money can't buy. For everything else, there's Mastercard.

Mastercard certainly can't get me out of this one. My family has been very low on money lately, so when Mrs L told us about the trip to France she and her husband were chaperoning for any French students that wanted to go, the chances of me going were one in a million in my mind. But now, things just might be different.

They might be different. Is it worth the embarrassment of asking? I hardly ever show it, even my friends don't notice unless I tell them, but I get embarrassed very easily. I hate talking to teachers or people I don't know very well, I hate going up in front of a group of people (unless I am acting), and I can't stand how time seems to crawl when I have to do any of these things.

But I want this so much. I was just looking at the Acis website and followed a couple of links to an AYA site about studying abroad for a semester or a full school year. Do you know how awesome that would be? I love my country, but I have always wanted to get out of here, and I made it a personal goal to spend over a year off of the North American continent when I realized how much I loved French last year in my first year of studying it. Even if I don't study in France or elsewhere, it would be fabulous to take the tour with the French students at my school!

I want this so much, but I don't know if I have what it takes to get what I want.


"But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather.."
-- Fantine, I Dreamed A Dream, Les Misérables

"I am reaching but I fall
And the stars are black and cold
As I stare into the void
Of a world that cannot hold.."
-- Javert, Javert's Suicide, Les Misérables

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